Here we go again......
It is evident by the one and only other post on this blog - also 10 years old - that the idea of needing or wanting and attempting to make changes in my life is constant. Does that mean I have walked around unhappy all 40 of my years? I don't think so. Does it mean that I live in a constant state of discontent or wanting for more than what's in front of me? I don't think that is true either. Instead, I believe that some of us are seekers and some of us - not so much; some of us find ourselves content with what's in front of us and some of us see shiny things in every corner. It's not necessarily bad or good; I don't have to think about my want for change or their lack of it in such black and white terms. So what kind of change am I chasing now? This February it will be 5 years since my father's passing. And for the last 5 years, I have credited his death with all kinds of things; weight gain, unhappiness, reclusiven...